Feeling “Fed” Up

Do you ever just feel fed up with doing the same things again and again?

Lately, I’ve been really trying to take the time to reflect on my life and my habits, specifically the habits that contribute (or not) to a healthy lifestyle. Journaling, working with a nutritionist, speaking to a counsellor, yakking my friends’ ears off, etc., you name it, I’ve tried it. And the conclusion that I’ve arrived at is that I’m stuck. Stuck in a rut repeating the same cycle over and over, and never really getting to the root of my issues with food.

As I mention in About Me, I have struggled with finding balance in my approach to health and well-being, specifically around my eating habits, for years. I’ve tried so many diets, protocols, guidelines, rules, schedules, always with the same outcome:

  1. Start feeling fed up (sound familiar?!) with the bad habits I’ve created
  2. Research new approach (read: diet) to eating well
  3. Decide on a “start date” (Monday always sounds like the right day!)
  4. Begin the new regime, with varying lengths of adherence (most recently: 1/2 a day. No joking.)
  5. Sometimes find some success, but without fail, ALWAYS give up before reaching my goals (self-sabotage, anyone?)
  6. Revert back to bad habits until ultimately starting the cycle all over again

I can guarantee, based on the exorbitant number of fad diets and “magic pills” available on the market today, that I’m not the only one who has experienced this struggle. This cycle is especially tricky for me because, as I’ve learned over the past couple of years, I am an emotional eater. I suppose it could be worse but, for all intents and purposes, my vice is food. Junk food, to be specific. To cope with stress, to escape difficult feelings, to celebrate, to forget about something – food is the answer. But of course, like with any self-medicating behaviour, the escape is only temporary.

As the old saying goes, “the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results,” so I think it’s time I change things up a bit and ditch this unhealthy cycle. To start, I think it’s important to reflect on some of my personal truths.

Some things I know to be true for me:

  • I believe in removing certain things from the diet temporarily – to see how it makes my body feel. NOT because “gluten is evil” or “carbs will make you fat.”  And if you feel better without it, then maybe removing it completely is the right choice.
  • Daily chocolate is a necessity
  • I feel more confident, energized and focused when I’m eating for fuel
  • Despite my long-held beliefs, eating [insert junk food of choice here] will not make me feel better
  • My diet needs to include foods that I enjoy and not make me feel restricted

These are points that I need to remind myself of. It doesn’t need to be all or nothing. There is no end date; the pursuit of health and wellness is ongoing.

Some strategies I’m going to start with:

  • Sharing my thoughts, feelings and experiences through this blog;
  • Trying to change some of the deeply ingrained habits and behaviours that I’ve developed that are keeping me from reaching my health goals, and adopting some new habits that are more aligned with my goals;
  • Working at adopting a healthier eating style – one that focuses on mindful eating and balanced meals as opposed to restriction and making healthier choices more often than not;
  • Reminding myself that small changes can make a difference.

One day, I hope to have the opportunity to practice as a Holistic Nutritionist, and to have arrived at a place where I am able to help others overcome these same struggles. For now, this blog will serve as one more avenue for me to explore these issue and share my journey with you. Stay tuned.

Today’s Reflection: What do you need to include or eliminate from your diet to help you feel your best? 

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